Been a while...

I have not written in a while. I sit here tired and defeated in front of my screen. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if things were different. There are so many thoughts just swimming in my head. I have no time to do much of anything except be swamped with thought about what I need to do. Somedays I try to tell myself I am lazy but in the end "laziness" wills out I guess and another day has come and gone...Again!